Want to know the best way to motivate me? Fun fact, it’s not money. It’s not adulation. It’s not praise. It’s certainly not nagging. Nope. Turns out my motivation all too often comes from a very different place
Tell me I can’t do something. Tell me I shouldn’t do something.
Watch as the Aries energy oozes from me and I double down. Not only will I do the thing in question, but I will do it so fast your head will spin. I will do it with such grace you will choke on your words. I will do it so SUCCESSFULLY that you will rightly shut your fucking pie hole.
A funny thing, Aries energy. Aries is the first sign of the zodiac, associated with new beginnings, bold action, and a fiery temperament. All who know me can attest to that temperament stuff. Aries are known to be confident, impatient, arrogant, impulsive, independent and quick to anger. I can confirm; I am textbook Aries.
I used to be much quicker to anger. Like my dad (who I take after a LOT), I seem to have mellowed as I’ve gotten older. Or perhaps post-divorce, I’m just more content and at peace? My kids seem to think so. Regardless, I don’t find the need to be so angry lately.
Arrogance is tough to deny. I very firmly believe I am goddamn amazing. So, yeah. I like the the thought of living rent free in people’s heads. Correction, I LOVE it. What’s that? You don’t like me? Get in line with the rest of the bitches who think I am too bold and too loud. I could not care less.
I like to be first in line; I NEED to be first in line; I hate to wait for anything. Driving on the highway with me is not for the faint of heart. To all the slow pokes in the left lane, get your asses OUT OF MY WAY.
I admit I can be pretty impulsive. Road trip in the middle of the night to another college two hours away with my bestie with no clear way of getting back home? Yup… Put an offer in same day on the house I toured that same morning? Yup…. Embark on an insane career change in advertising for a hot minute when some high dollars were dangled in front of me? Yup…. (though I was thankfully soon able to course correct and get back into the world of data geeks; advertising was NOT for me.)
Now. to be totally clear, I am also a planner to a fault. All who know me can attest to my love of a good MS Excel packing list. Though I have transitioned my packing lists to my notes app. And many friends have benefitted from my fail proof college packing list. You know who you are.
I don’t have any trouble making my way on my own. That house I mentioned above has turned out to be the best purchase of my life. It represents my new independence, my new single self. I answer only to myself now. I have learned a thing or two about changing light fixtures and outlets as well as what to do in the middle of the night when your sump pump discharge pipe disconnects. Let me tell you, that was some crazy shit. I have had help along the way, an incredible man has taught me much when it comes to landscaping, electrical and plumbing.
Interestingly enough, that house I bought and paid for myself now gives me a place to express my creativity and ferocious need for individuality. Deep pink accent walls, a fuchsia bathroom and a bedroom that shall be described as “whorehouse chic” are all the norm. Because I can. Because that’s what I want. I call the shots.
This whole site is an ode to my self confidence. I don’t walk into a room; I strut. I am my own motivation. Confidence is my middle name and I am resisting invisible every single day.
Keep resisting too, lovelies!
Resist Invisible 